It's Been a While

It has been a while since I posted here. I must admit, when I first started this, I had every intention to be posting regularly.

As often is the case, life has happened. I got caught up in all the things.

My husband ended up in the hospital this winter, that was a struggle. Got behind on things and was scrambling to try and keep things moving forward.

I have a four year old who requires a lot of attention and my fifteen year old is going through some very heavy emotions right now.

So here I am, back here. Maybe it's because I need a space to get the thoughts out. I scurry around trying to make sure that everyone and everything is taken care of, and somewhere along the line, I lost myself.

Maybe this will be therapeutic to me, lacking a therapist for myself.

All I know, is that I need a space, to get it all out of my head. Will anyone else see it? I have no idea, and truly, it does not matter. I just need it out of my head.

Even now, I am being guarded, for fear that someone else may see this. While inside, I am screaming, please, someone, make it stop!!! All the while putting the smile on my face. Maybe you can see the pain inside coming through my eyes. Maybe not.

Perhaps I do need therapy. For now, here I am.